I am so sorry for the pain you must feel over the loss of your young child. It must surely be a heavy burden. I will pray for you that faith in God will comfort you. We so often lack understanding in the choices God makes for our lives. He is however the creator of us all with a plan for each of us, according to his written word. The Bible also instructs us to trust in the Lord and lean not unto our own understanding, for His ways are higher than our ways. May you feel love and peace and joy from memories of your little son and family and friends as you make your adjustments.
I cannot imagine your heartache from the loss of your beautiful boy. Time doesn't even heal this kind of pain, but the painful moments will grow to be fewer. They will haver greater spaces in between them. One day you will realize that you went the entire day without crying. Then there will come a day that you didn't even think about him. Then you realize that twenty years have passed. Time is the only true healer. Don't waste one moment. Love the children that are alive. They need you. Now more than ever.
I lost my only sister on August 23, 1996.
She was 29 years old. She died from an injection of lidocain. She went into anaphylactic shock on the Dr's office and died. She had been exposed previously to this medication many times. You see in order to develop an allergy, you must first be exposed to a substance. You cells then tag that substance as dangerous. Some people eat strawberries all their life, then suddenly they become allergic to strawberries. It's a weak comparison, but we usually all have heard of someone like that.
I still have gut wrenching moments when I cry so hard because i miss my sister so much, but it is ok. I have learned to be strong. Life has thrown much heartache my way. I am so sorry for yours. I hope and pray you can find the strength to grieve in the way that you need to. Life will happen. The universe is unfolding as it should.
We are so so sorry for your loss.. your angel will be waiting for you guys when its time.. I know how difficult it may be just because we as you guys have children too and it's sad to imagine going through what you are going through.. it truly is sad, but know we love you guys.. and we will be praying for you guys.